cook.shoot.read.life

Udah lama banget ga post sesuatu yang menyenangkan ke tumblr perasaan haha #pentingabesh

Now I swear to the universe, it’s over now. Totally.

Have been being an audience
Wasting my life watching a movie called, somebody else’s life
I’d like to have my own movie, sometimes
With me, myself, as the star
Instead of running out my time
Sitting on the audience’s seat at the cinema
Crying everytime the sad scene appears
Laughing when I reach the funny part
Feel embraced everytime the star got some peaceful, enjoyable moments
I’d like to feel my own feeling, in my life as the movie and me being the star
With new and interesting stories everytime the sun appears after the moon replaced his place for the whole night
Crying everytime I feel sad for myself and smiling everytime there’s something pleasing me
I miss that time of having a life…

One More Note For A Friend

Even in this state of sadness, you bring a sincere spark of light into my desperation :’)

A Note For A Friend

You’re the funniest person I’ve ever met on earth
You’re the most sincere human I’ve ever knew in this whole world
You always make my day, whatever you do
You’re funny and nice
It’s been only few months since first time we met, I know
But it hurts me seeing you sad
Don’t cry
Don’t stop being nice and sincere and funny, I beg
Semangat!!!

“Jangan ucapkan selamat tinggal, karena kita akan bertemu lagi” - Monkey D. Luffy

Zero Escapement

If only he knew, she streamed a waterfall last night
And the cloud’s being so sympathetic this morning
Colour itself just like her mourning

Un-relieved
Un-feltback

It was her heart, feeling fucked up
Not sure if he’s realised
Or perhaps twas only a drop of saltwater in the ocean for him
While it was one in a deep wound for her
She hoped he would ask for a mercy
But he wouldn’t
Seemingly
It was only a miss of three way trialogue
And though he has straightened it to her with a dialogue
In the middle of her monologue
It’s still a big black heavy rock on the top of a rainbowy ice cream

Should be relieved but there is zero escapement
Need a placebo to keep her unchased by the resentment
To be in peace, peacefully
To go into the light and dark alternately
To have a contentment in her heart
To form a smile with her lips

But there is zero escapement